Written by Coach Brianna Workman
Growing up I have always been considered “the good girl” which for a while made me feel proud and worthy. But by the time I got to high school the term switched to “goody two shoes” and “teachers’ pet.” I always got straight A’s, was never late to class, and accepted every opportunity for extra credit. I’m a hard worker, I am a dreamer and believe I can do ANYTHING if I want it bad enough. They often told me I was crazy. I don’t have a problem with doing what is asked of me, and rarely got into trouble. I am joyful, positive and real. I love TOO hard. As Randy says I am naturally “just me.” I was, and still am, often rejected because of this.
I am still learning to find my voice. The sticks and stones were NOT something I enjoyed and many times, something I never understood and I’ve asked myself what I did wrong. I taught myself to stay quiet, and become an observer, never wanting to step on toes and push people away, especially for reasons that I was unsure of. I lost many friends over the years for reasons that I still don’t know today.
I have learned, however, that I have vibrant colors in my soul that shine with passion. Anytime someone I love or that which I am passionate about gets attacked unfairly, I suddenly become very loud in my opinions and defend that person with everything I have. I have been told I am “too good of a friend” or that I am “too loyal.” It comes very naturally for me to be hopeful of a resolution and I will fight for that which I love. I take friendships so seriously that I will literally do anything for you without hesitation if you do right by me.
…”Good girl”… “loyal” …”perfect” …
One would think that these are taken as compliments, and at times they are meant to be, however, many times in my life they were delivered as under-handed punches from others, telling me that “I’m too good for them, to be accepted” so instead I get pushed down.
A few weeks ago, in his nuggets, Ted talked about feeling guilty for having an easy life. I can relate to that on so many levels! I grew up in a healthy home, we weren’t rich but we never went without anything we needed, and I have two loving and God-fearing parents who have poured their life and love into raising me right. Even when it comes to my faith, I’ve always struggled with feeling like I don’t have a testimony because I accepted Christ at the age of 5 and grew up with Jesus by my side from such a young age. I have always had peace from the Almighty one in whatever I faced and seen the glass full, as my heart is overflowing with joy!
I mentioned how I can relate, to Coach Ted. He gave me the advice that he got from our dear friend, Coach Rigo. “Instead of feeling guilty, use the blessings you have been given, to give back.”
Wow! How in the world did I not think of the ways that my circumstances have helped me to give back!
As I’ve continued to think about this I came across a quote, “imagine your mind is like a garden and your thoughts are the seeds. You get to choose what seeds you plant in it. You can plant seeds of positivity, love and abundance. Or you can plant seeds of negativity, fear and lack. You can also spend time trying to take care of everyone else’s garden. Or you can work on making yours beautiful and attract other beautiful people to your garden.” – (Jake Woodard)
I am still growing my garden. I pray that I always stay healthy and “green.” I am healthier today than I ever have been and am finally seeing how important it is to plant seeds of positivity, love and abundance. I was always picking and passing out my own “flowers” rather than encouraging others to plant their own. I have begun to attract so many beautiful people and I know it’s because I am being true to myself. I’m allowing people in again after pushing them away for so long and I am giving back in a healthier way. I’ve stopped letting the “sticks and stones” bring me down and (as Katy Perry would say) “use them to build a house.” I will keep being me, and nobody can stop me from loving passionately and being positive. They can’t change me, even when I am pushing daisies.
Question of the day:
What is a good seed (thought) that you can plant more of in your garden (mind)?